OK basic info. I'm a guy 17 from the Caribbean. No, I am not just a teenager who is into hocus pocus or harry potter etc. I know this is real.
I am a Roman Catholic officially by religion and I fully well believe in a God. The trinity. I'm not yet sure about magic being wrong to use, but I am open minded and interest in at least learning. Due to my faith I do believe in magic as it is forbidden etc. However like I said. I am open minded.
My reasons for learning is not for luck or love spells. As a matter of fact I quite detest any love spell as it may mess with another's free will and I believed most in people following their hearts and making as much desision based on free will. I want to learn about occult as it is unknown, and what I want to to know. I want to better understand the world. Its hard to explain, but I just don't want to turn a blind eye to as much as possible. I want to experience this world.
When I was really small I got into magic for the hocus pocus part but eventually accidently found some real stuff and started drawing fake circles for fun. Admitantly based on the skeleton key movie. But I was 7 so forgive that stupidity.
What really got me into magic now much later was a trilogy called the Bartimaeus books. Its virtually about solo nic summoning magic and I doubt it has much real stuff. But it did have some real bits that opened my eyes.
I want to understand magic, non human entities, other planes of existence or parralel planes or dimension or whatever. I just wanna learn. Can someone here help me please. Also would really like if someone knows where I can find grimoirs online. I would really like to read the lesser key of Solomon. But I can't find it. I also can't read or speak anything but English and a meagre scrape and I do mean meagre scrape of Latin. I have a lot to learn and really want help. Also um well I just wanna know. Are exorsims real? Like will certain biblical rituals really dispel a possessed person? Because up till know I believed that demons exist and can trick people into possessing them and I believed they could be driven out by an exorcism. Is it true?