I don't know what I am.... My abilitys keep on growing and I feel like I'm going to lose control one day. I don't know what to make of them. I have the ability to make seals and use them although I don't know why. I blank out when I draw them. My dreams tells me the future and something big is going to happen to me and I'm running out of time. I can spirit walk.... I'm still trying to get a hang on that. I'm an empath. That grew in last year. I am able to get visions and I see unknown shadows. Lately my mother has been acting crazy she claims that she is the creator of everything and that my father isn't my real father.... I try to convince myself that I'm not crazy. I see unknown people always trying to protect or kill me in a dream. And my mom said that I killed a demon girl by breaking her neck in a dream.,..she was right. The girl was trying to make me go to the bad side.... But I'm not bad (I don't think) its just confusing and I am gaining new abilitys all the time. Help me? There's another thing... I do think my mom is somewhat crazy...she talked about this recently but I had the dream about the demon girl two years ago before I turned 13. I knew magic before my mom I believe....and I don't know if she is playing with dark stuff or a creature is trying to reach me . I'm chased by monsters all the time and at twelve a similar situation happened to my friend and she said that something made her say it . I knew something would happen like this ever since I was four because I use to run in my moms room and scream in her face to see if she was alive . My dreams warned me and told me about the future and I didn't get it till now . The one dream that gets me is the notes my mom left me....it was a dream of how it feels to not be born. I travel from house to house and picked up letters describing my moms life time.... Without me. The last house / the house I live in now is when the worst part came.... The house was damaged and I found a binder and it said how much she love me and how special I was..... I didn't remember all of what my mother said but I know it was important and then this guy came wanting to know where the binder is..... I hid it and he threatens to kill me after he kills this guy he knows. And the dream ends. I can't help thinking that my mom is going to die soon. I'm afraid.... Because the dream didn't continue. She also mentioned a guy she didn't or shouldn't know....that freaked me out...I've been looking for help ever since. And that dream happened a year ago. I have plenty more that ended up telling or warning me bout the future
Im sorry my friend. This sounds like something very serious. I dont know if my advice will help but hope so. First of i hve found that prophetic dreams almost always project themselves through symbolism. Symbolism ia where a person, object, or idea represents something completely different. I dont know what to make of your drem. Im usually pretty good at this. The key points to me are these: 1. Mainly focused on your mother and your life. 2. The binder and letters must symbolize something in your life. 3. The man who came looking forthe binder...careful with this one. Could be an entity, an emotion of yours, a struggle in your life, or even a real person. Think about those things and try to piece together what they mean. You have many gifts. They are not curses, though im sure they feel like it some times. I know this because i have a few "gifts" myself. Judging by the list of your ntural abilities, i feel the desire and gut iression to tell you that you are a seer. I am sorry if my knoqlege was not of assistance but i will help in any way i can.
This really does sound like a mental torture technique. They know how powerful you are.I believe that I told you this before.My gut is still saying the same thing.Since they cannot hurt you directly,they try to hurt the people closest to you.Maybe they are giving you these visions to intimidate you and for them to show you what they are going to do next while you feel helpless.They are trying to use your empathy against you. Emotions can make you strong but they can also break you.For some reason, I am drawn to your story.
