Welcome and please read up on Newbie Central and the SoM Survival Guide. Also be sure to follow the rules set forth in chat so you don't get gagged.
As for spells, how much experience do you have. You can't just cast spells Willy Nilly. You need many things to cast a spell correctly and intent is one of them. Without intent you are just probably reciting bad prose.
Study a lot, take good advice and I'd start with meditation. It is a good place to learn how to ground yourself and find your center.
I wish you all the luck and hope you find fulfillment in your path.