My Stages of Energy
I have been meditating on raising a strong enough energy to unlock the natural ability to touch the spirit realm and feel it as you normally feel the physical. I feel a bit more connected to this goal than I felt to the sense of hearing honestly(this has helped the desire portion of my energy towards this goal), and I am noticing a few things that are effecting the levels of energy, as well as how strong it has been so far.
I'll share with you each level of energy that I am experiencing (I am doing this on a daily basis) and how I was able to move from one level to the next- and what has caused me to move from a more powerful level to a less powerful one at certain times.
When I start meditating, I am alert and ready to sit and focus on my meditation for a period of time without the fear of needing to go to sleep. If you fall asleep then your meditation will come to an end. The only energy I have when starting out is the desire to touch the spirit realm, or be touched in such a way as that it unlocks the sense itself(by the energy/spirits). I sit somewhere comfortable in an upright position. I clasp my hands together in order to form a circuit of energy in my body (this can help to maintain the energy, but it is only an aid). I focus more accurately in complete silence and I would recommend it to you. Additionally, your focus during and throughout this meditation should be very intent, in an urgent sense. Make a point to feel that your focus is urgent and important, and be more willful with it accordingly.
After all of this is done, I take an account of my will to focus, as well as the emotional need that I have available within me to galvanize towards this goal. It it best for you to have a balance between the water-emotional need, and the fire-intense focus. After that is accounted for I then shift my perspective to the 2nd-hand perspective, (I no long view myself as myself, but as another person- or "you", as if I were to be an outside entity focusing on a person, namely myself. This helps to focus the energy more than you might think.)
After adjusting to the second-hand perspective I start to focus on the duality between my actual sense of touch and the space around me which contains the energy of the spirit realm; I focus on an invisible layer between these two things, and on bridging that gap by focusing on the sense of touch and the energy of the spirit in such a way as to join them together. The "I", or first perspective of myself focuses on the need and the desire, and perhaps the reasons as to why I need this to happen- things that strengthen my desire(My first perspective self still exists although I am focusing on it from an exterior perspective- and as such see it as ?you?). The part of myself that is focusing on the second-hand perspective of my awareness focuses on causing me, on a more impassioned and yet intensely willful level to cause my first-hand perspective self to touch the spirit realm. The first few minutes of this is mainly buildup so don't expect much drama with the energy instantly. I normally feel some warmth gather and slight tingles during the initial buildup of the energy. Especially after doing this multiple times the beginning stages can become tedious, but there is no ?skip? button so just learn to be patient.
After a few minutes (5-10) I will begin to feel something new. A slightly numbing feeling, and the tingles from before are stronger to an extent and feel as though there are many 'tingles' moving, this usually begins in my joined hands. Note that you should continue focusing on joining the physical sense of touch with the spiritual energy from the exterior perspective at this point- try not to get too distracted by the new sensations. As the sensations become more intense they will more easily distract you, and thus cause the energy to weaken- so steel your resolve. You will know at this point if you are focusing on your intent or if you are being distracted as the sensations will noticeably respond by strengthening or weakening.
The moving tingly feelings and the numbness will increase until you feel it running down both of your arms, through the hands, and to an extent in other areas- I usually feel it around my chest as well(that is also where I tend to centralize my focus). Altogether it will feel like a lot of 'ripples' that are running in straight lines, if that makes sense. An aspect of it can feel a touch magnetic, but not too strongly at this point.
Always remember that it is very significant not to be distracted by the strengthening sensations. At this point is also where I can feel the value in using the second-hand perspective in a sort of visceral way. If I switch out of it (back to seeing myself as not an exterior being but just myself as normal) the energy noticeably weakens, and the more I can separate my second-hand awareness from myself and my feelings, desires- etc, the stronger the energy will get, more quickly. It is still important for the first-hand perspective of yourself to have those feelings and desires as it feeds into the energy, however the second-hand perspective of yourself needs to be disconnected from them except to cause them to be met from an exterior consciousness.
The energy continues to strengthen- make sure you have the will and the patience to keep going.. I often tell myself 'this is just the beginning' when I feel myself wanting to stop, as in truth I wish to go further. The tingles and numbness that I felt before will start to escalate, stiffening my joints and vibrating my hands, and arms. I will also occasionally feel a very brief urge to vomit- but it passes so quickly that it might as well not even happen. All of these signs should be taken as positive indications that you are making headway- I am never frightened by anything that I feel from this, rather my anticipation increases.
You will also feel the moving tingles, numbness, etc moving to other areas of your body. Most notably for me is that my mouth will typically begin to clench itself slightly (as if I were to stiffly purse it) as these sensations enter it. I will also occasionally feel a light shock on my tongue at this point.
After this, these sensations escalate so that all of what I said I felt before is occurring to a slightly more extreme degree, with the addition of pain in some areas. The muscles and joints that are being stiffened will start to hurt. And if you continue they will be sore for awhile even after you stop. For me it was mainly my shoulders and shoulder-blades after. However, moving any stiffened joints, like the hands or arms (which are the most stiff during the meditation for me, and where the energy seems to be running through primarilly) will also be painful (not horribly, it is quite tolerable) until the energy subsides-which will only happen if you stop focusing on your intent. The vibrating in your fingers and hands, and arms, will be more noticeable to you.
This is how far I have gotten so far. I expect to try to go further when possible. Know that the energy actually is more receptive to you on some days over others, it is possible to have 'off days' due to nothing more than this. But once you reach a certain point and have gotten past that point, it is not unreasonable to try to reach that point every day. That is what I am doing(besides trying to get as far as I can of course). Lastly and to clarify, your primary perspective throughout the meditation should be the exterior one- looking at yourself as another person. Using this technique helps to allow the energies and spirits know exactly what you want from it/them.
The most difficult thing here is patience, once you understand the flow. I hope this is helpful or interesting to you guys. Let me know what you think and if you want to ask me something feel free.