I'm sorry for posting this,I have nowhere else to turn to, I just want to say there's nothing wrong with following your heart. Even if it's going against your family's religious beliefs. I was just having a conversation with my religious aunt who told me "I won't amount to anything if don't pray", that I can never be successful if I don't pray.
I told her that I want to depend on myself but she told me, I won't amount on anything if I DON'T PRAY. Sorry I know this is overwhelming and I understand if you think this is farfetched but I'm telling the truth.
I can't pray or depend on that religion anymore because all I ever felt was feel sorry for myself and I'm done feeling bad, I'm being force-fed with their beliefs by that religion. I'm done getting hurt because all I felt from them was hurt, honestly. Pain was the only thing I ever felt from them and I can't believe that it's all part of the plan or an act of faith.
Again, I'm sorry for venting my frustrations here, I don't have anyone else to turn to about this.