I'm not normally superstitious. I like to think I'm mostly rational and calm ect. but I have never ever been this scared in my life.
I recently took a job as a live-in nanny. It's hardly glamorous but the kid is adorable so all's good. Except the house. I'm sitting here and it's like sitting in a tomb. It's just oppressive and I have constant butterflies in my stomach. And nightmares, oh my goodness, I don't want to sleep.
I think the worst part is that my nightmares aren't about me. They're about the baby. Sometimes, I hear footsteps pacing about his room or I'll close the door and then walk upstairs and it will be open. It's gotten so bad that sometimes I feel like I have to like stand vigil outside his door, just in case.
If I was scared for myself, I would just leave but leaving isn't really an option when a young child is involved. Furthermore, I am undecided as to whether or not I'm going insane or just whipping myself up into hysteria.
Has anyone else had any experiences like this? Any advice?