You should of reseived a message from two people. One is the administrator of the site, Petrarca. The other is a moderator, you should read both and go back to the one the moderator sent you. It will direct you to the "Newbie Central" it will help you understand the basics of magic(k). Then I would suggest you to go onto the "Articles" and then click "Survival Guide" and read that it will help you understand the site more. Also suggest reading the "Chatter Rules" and read carefully and agree, but hint ( there is a trick one). I would also read books about magic(k) here are a few I would recommend "The Craft" and the "Wicca A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner". There are more books out there.
Welcome to SoM. You would first need to study first for a bit then make your decision after that. The craft is not for everyone. Start off with the basics. By doing so it will help you learn how magic(k) work. It may be hard at first but it bwcomes easier the more you practice. Trust me.