Im losing my faith- magic

Why don't you watch something like ghost hunters,it's not about magick,but it IS paranormal,then think,if ghost can be real,then why not magick? not ALL of the places they go are haunted,but in other places they don't find a ratonal explanation,that's one thing that might help.

Find a group or event in your area. Participate or witness a true ritual. My belief in magick stemmed from seeing it as a child. I have no doubt because I did see what it could do from experienced people.

As I read over your posting history in the forums I get some clues about your problem. Within the last week you have posted about a girl that you cursed to death in 4 months, a post asking how to gather energy, and one about a demon egg spell that you are making. I will refrain from the fluffy commentary and just simply say that you need to research and study your magic basics.

I live in a place where witchcraft is banded. They are all christians. It would be hard finding an event. So I'll have to wait until I can move.

I have been. And the demon egg thing was just a curious question.

You shouldn't expect so much at once. Magic is gradual. I've also seen other posts of yours and you seem all over the place. It takes focus. Blessed be.

Magic takes some time to learn. It will take it least a year on average of doing meditation and/or magic before your success with spells gets satisfactory. Just keep at it and you will succeed I assure you, anyone can do it. And if Im ever losing my confidence I just go on this site. Does it sound like everyone is lying? Are they saying their are fluffys and fake spells for no reason? Are people going to waste their lives pretending? No. This is real and you will succeed if you keep practicing I promise you.

Try small man elemental magic of that level where weather is player is difficult no matter how much you practice. Also it would help if you could find type of magic that relates to your personality, not what every one follows. What I mean is find your own path man, there are infinite types of magic field its like if you will different types of medical field you have dentists etc.. just find one suited to you believe it dream it live it. And remember baby steps don't jump the big gun back lash of spell is nasty trust me I had spell back fire on me 3 years ago and the scar of it cant be healed no matter what.

Why proof? try meditation it is proof enough in my eyes.

Try something easier. Weather spells are less stable and will only work if circumstances permit them to. Try maybe a simple luck spell?