So you want to become a vampire?
You want to feel cold to the touch? So that the man you love may never know your warmth. Do you want to look pale and sickly? Everyone will avoid you. You want to live far beyond your husband, your own children? Watch everything die around you? You want to need blood to survive, to a point where if you do not feed, you will die? Everytime you feed, you feel great, but only for so long, because you'll begin to feel weak again, needing to feed once more. Where will you get the blood? By killing people? You'll never feel comfortable in the light of day again because it hurts your eyes. Any bright light will hurt your eyes. So you will never see the full spectrum of color the world has to offer again. You said you have a mother. Think about what will happen to your friends and family when they find out what has happened to you...they will fear you or fear for you. Then police, government. If you became a vampire, you would be hunted everyday of your life. I won't even go into any details as to what might be done to you if you're caught.
Do you think that the life of a vampire is cool now?
No where here did I say that you can become a vampire with a spell. The otherkin community would even laugh at you! In their belief, if you have a vampiric soul (in a perfectly human body might I add) you will eventually "awaken" your spiritual self. People don't just *poof* a vampire! Do you think a silly spell will alter your spiritual blueprint?
There are physical people with mental and physical disease that can cause them to be classified as "vampiric" throught the ages. Cannibalism, anemia, waking up from a coma after being buried!
There are physical and spiritual beings that drink blood. Physical beings include, mesquitoes, vampire bats, all carnivorous animals...your occasional cannibal, and your occasional rare to medium cooked steak lover. Spiritual beings come in all shapes, sizes, and natures. But when they are incarnated they all become HUMAN.
But you seem so sure of it, I thought I would give you the negatives of such a desire. You seem to only be dazzled by fan fiction. The life of a vampire isn't glamourous.