I just joined and I'm really hoping this is the place I should be. I haven't been able to find anything else today where I can post what I'm going through and not get snarky replies telling me I should seek mental help.
I'm a twenty six year old girl. My husband and I just moved into our apartment about five months ago. And last night I found myself overcome with this crushing fear. I felt like someone was watching me, staring at me, but I couldn't see anything. For the proceeding hours and all of today, I have the feeling of prickles all over (like pins and needles). I'm very anxious and on edge, jumping at every sound, including my cats.
I spoke with my best friend who knows that I'm interested (and always have been) in spirits and metaphysical things. I told her I never get this frightened, ever. She mentioned to me (as I'm Catholic) that perhaps something demonic could be around me. I, of course, passed this off as nothing. But the more I thought about it, the more even I wondered. So I did some research. As most things you research, I was sure that most of the things I read had happened to me, including the mood swing and the feel of someone just staring. I tried not to think about it too much but I found myself even frightened to be alone in my own apartment. Nothing has actually happened at this point. I stood against the wall while on the phone with my best friend because I couldn't stand any open space to my back and I found my arms and fingers were finely shaking. I finally convinced myself to go into the bedroom. While in bed, I kept hearing one of my cats meowing very loudly. I walked out of the bedroom each time but the cat was fine, laying on my husband's shoes.
Today, I tried to believe I had just had one of those nights. Then the feelings started up again. I feel someone watching me and the pins and needles are all up and down my arms, and along my spine. I attempted one thing I read online that said to command the presence to leave. For about an hour I was sure that it had gone. I couldn't feel anything. Then it was back. While I was washing dishes, I spotted my cat sitting in the curtain with just his nose and eyes peeked out. (This is the same cat I heard meowing the night before) As I watched him, he didn't blink. He didn't move. He just stared at me for minutes on end. And then I got the feeling back again.
Just a few moments ago, I heard a knock on my door. (It was a very tell tale knock. The da-dada-da-da then da-da. I jumped practically out of my skin and the first thing I did was go to the back window and close the curtains. I don't know why. Then I went to look out the peep hole and no one was standing there. It took a few minutes to get myself to open the door but when I finally did, I saw nothing, heard nothing, until I started to walk back inside. That's when I noticed a long horizontal scratch on my door. It's indented and I've never seen it before.
I'm really worried and I swear I'm not crazy. I just need some help. Someone, please tell me what I can do. Please.