| Looking for new knowledge of anything metaphysics-related to help me with my creative work and anything to help me achieve success and attract good things to aid me in reaching my goals. I am also interested in astral projecting as I want to see different worlds and different kinds of spirits and races and learn more about them. I have experienced a little bit of astral projecting, but they were very short and I immediately went back in my body. I hope to project easily at will soon. I'm trying my best to work on my paintings in order to sell and make enough money to move out so I can avoid having to move to another state with my mom. All the way across to the other side of the country, actually. That's a really big move and I don't feel comfortable moving far from where I grew up.
I have somewhat of a connection with the god Ganesha. He has come into my dreams a few times, so I believe he may be watching over me. I didn't pay attention to him before, but after my first dream with him, I've been more aware of him. He's a really good god to worship. All the times I dreamed of him, he's always been good to me. :) He also helps people become successful in whatever they are trying to achieve. I feel honored he has noticed me. I've been praying to him to help me find a cure for my health problems and my mom later was able to find out the causes of them and how to heal them so now I'm not weak as I used to and I can be more productive and move around freely without feeling drained all the time. My relatives are mostly Christian, but I feel more attracted to the Hindu religion. I still don't know much about it, but I am more interested in it, as well as witchcraft. I believe in the Spiritual Universal Laws and follow it.
I've been over sheltered by my mom for a long time and I feel like it's time for me to move out. I can never be happy living with her. She is so negative. Most topics I bring up, she turns it into an argument, which is really unnecessary. I just have questions that need to be answered. I don't need to be attacked with negative responses. I'm just beginning to get my life together after recovering. It was so bad that I had to stay in bed most of the day everyday and I had to quit college. I couldn't even process new information, if anything, just a little. It was so hard to think, my mind was numb to what was happening around me that I even made some horrible decisions that I promised myself I would never do and I can never forgive someone for taking advantage of me in the past.
I don't feel comfortable communicating with strangers right now with the way I am, especially online. I prefer to quietly learn and practice what I need here independently so I can move forward more quickly and make it out in time. I hope I can achieve more through this website. I really need it right now.
I have no interest in a relationship. I want to reach my goals a lot more than having one, more than anything.
I don't buy brands from sweatshops and brands that aren't cruelty-free. I am also vegetarian. Eating anything with low-vibrations makes me feel tired and sluggish. Everyone should be aware of sweatshops and fight against it. There are clothes made in sweatshops that people die making. Sometimes the buildings are so in poor shape that they collapse and workers have died in them. Please take the time to learn about it.
Once I have found useful spells I come across that worked well for me, I'll post them on this site.
I want to completely recover my singing ability and produce my own music one day. It has always been my dream to be a singer and I want to make albums that are truly a work of art and bring that out into the world (not something that some people mostly see as a source of profit, quick money music, if that makes sense). Music should be seen as a form of art and people should respect other people's unique creations just like any other kind of art.