|i waited forever for him
And lost him in two days
My fate looks so grim
Cause now my heart is torn in so many ways
Darkness all around me.
No light its suffocating.
I'm begging it to kill me.
But the more I beg the longer I seem to live.
The longer I live the darker it gets.
There is pain, sorrow and death I hate it.
With every waking moment the pain gets worse.
AS the days drag on I give up all hope.
Finally there's light.
I walk towards it and it disappears.
I'm left in complete darkness.
Weeks after I stop begging I finally die.
You think you know me?
You don't know the half of it.
You think you scare me?
I'm just pushing back the wrath again.
I'm a beast inside soon you'll see
That you don't know the smallest part of me
Pushing against the walls within
I'm living in anger
And drowning in sin
Just one drop of blood is all I need
To finally set free,
The evil thing inside of me.
You pushed me too far
Now it's your turn
To get pushed around,
In hell you'll burn
I follow you close,
Silent like a mouse
I wait till you stop outside your house
I do it fast,
But deadly as a demon
Hold you down
And know there's no screaming''
I whisper the words of death in your ear
Your muffled cries,
That no one will hear
I hold your head up till I see your throat
I sink my teeth in until you choke
Your eyes roll back inside of your head
One look at you and I hope you are dead
Now you're the victim,
And I'm the haunter
One look at him
And I know I'm a monster
Can no one see this smile I'm faking,
See how, inside, I'm constantly shaking?
These people all claim they know me well,
Yet no one can see through my crumbling shell?
"I'm fine", I whisper, my sadness unknown,
They leave me to deal with this anguish alone.
I've hidden behind this wall most of my life,
I've managed so far, I've dealt with my strife.
Watching as, slowly, my blood leaks away,
It helps to keep life's true horrors at bay.
I pull down my sleeve to cover my hurt,
For approaching footsteps, I'm on the alert.
I guess my pretense is just all too real,
No one has to know of the pain that I feel.
The real me inside, where no one can see,
I can fool everyone else, why can't I fool me?
On a cold and dreary morning
As I sit upon my bed
While I stare at your picture
Thoughts of you go through my head
Sometimes when you don't know it
You douse my feelings with cold rain
And though you may not realize it
You put me through such pain
I know that I should turn away
Just go and not look back
This being lonely but not alone
Is something I can't hack
But something keeps me holding on
Is this the best I'll find?
I can't imagine moving forward
And leaving you behind
You know you can't deny it
Yes, I know you love me too
I pray the day will never come
When you say that we're through
I've never felt this way before
And never will again
My heart will always be yours
Even after our time comes to an end
I hope you don't forget these words
Until the day you die
And when that day comes I will be
Behind you with a sigh
I love you baby, don't forget
These feelings that I write
'Cuz if I said I'd die for you
Believe me, I just might.
this is me so just accept it for i dont care what you think god or bad i am me and i decide what i am