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okay so i'm 15 years old. i don't know if i have an affinity or not but when i go outside and its very windy i feel something. it's like its calling me and cleanses me i dont know why i feel that way. It happens with water too. its not as much though. I feel in touch with it. i hate swimming and im terrified when i see it because i cant swim but when i touch it i feel as if maybe its part of me. with fire on a candle i want to touch it. i dont know if its because my room caught on fire and the fact i was drawn to it from the start. i had a feeling like these for almost everything.

for spirit it calms me deeply. I kinda play around with calling it to my friends when they are suicidal and all that or when they are having a tough time i say " spirit come to me. Please go to jessica and strengthen her" the next day shes happy she just says "i did nothing but sleep and i feel amazing." She wasnt sad her eyes actually sparkeled for the first time in 5 months at the time.

since i was little i played in dirt and talked to trees and even touched them. I felt sad when my little brother would break a branch off. i feel calm when i sit under a tree in some long grass and the winds breeze overpowering me kinda. i dont know if i have an affinity or whatever but if i do id really like to know how to learn to use it :) thanks

oh and i almost forgot. I worship Goddess nyx. when i pray to her asking if i have an affinity i feel the touch of air, fire, water, earth, and spirit. a little touch though like the breeze gets stronger after i pray even if there wasnt a breeze at all. it gets warmer but then gets colder. and i feel the touch of grass when theirs no grass around me...