I am madly in love with someone and everything is going great until I screwed it as usual being my insecure with my past abuse. I desperately waiting for a text from him and wanting to cast a love spell. This isn't teenage love this is someone who we were very passionate and close too.
I am in the same position at present :/ terrible how we allow past relationships/abuses to ruin new good ones! Have you tried shadow work to clear your past negative experiences (to raise your vibration and get more in touch with your magick) and then sending him love and light? I am currently trying this process as I'm a beginner and a little nervous about trying a love spell in case it messes with his free will, so I'm trying all other avenues first. Hope this helps you a little.
I apologize for what has happened to you in the past. ): It breaks my heart that something like that has happened to you. However, I don't think magick is needed for something like this. I suggest you just be patient and apologize for whatever you did. I don't believe you should try to force him into loving you with a love spell, unless he already loves you. If he already loves/likes you and decided he wants to be with you then I think that will be okay. Sorry for not giving you the answer you wanted.