This is something that I've sort of just let flow for a while, and I'm reasonably content to let things develop on their own but thought it could be helpful to seek some outside help either way.
For a long while I've had a lot of confusion on my personal matron and patron deity, or the beings present in my life at this time. My own views on deity are probably a little less common within the pagan community, but that's a little besides the point.
I have affirmed through various readings and signs perceived in my life that there is at least a being in my life, one who is encouraging me to go beyond formalities and love openly, one who is encouraging me to feel protected and to know that this situation is stable (the whole "loving deity" thing seems to be quite present in my current path, just to clarify, but with more popular pagan themes.) However, I have no idea who they are, or if there is more than one of these beings. The cards did suggest a Goddess and a male being - this male being could very much be a guide, or even the/a God whose influence in my life is blocked to due personal traumas and struggles.
However, I feel a) unsure what these beings are. b) unsure who they are. c) uncertain of how to approach these beings and d) if I should be worried at all about the specific and just "go with it".
I'm mainly concerned with causing accidental disrespect to a deity, by assuming something or doing something wrong (such as assuming them to be this deity, that deity, a spirit guide etc.) Like wise, I don't want to assume a spirit guide to be a deity, since then I could be approaching the relationship in a wholly different way. There's also always the question of where we draw the line between spirit and deity - especially for those who believe deities are more or less larger spirits - but that's turning into a debate that asks questions currently irrelevant to my topic. Sorry, I'm rambling.
I know that only I can answer most of these questions, but wanted to reach out to the community just in case someone out there has any idea how I could possibly deal with all of these questions. I'm starting to become accepting of the idea that I might need to just "let it be", and let things develop on their own, but another aspect of the recent readings did suggest I reach out to a community (so I figured: "what the heck, I'll go for it".)
Sorry to ramble, hope this doesn't sound too hopeless or uneducated or downright childish in any way. Just splurging the situation out there.
Thanks to any and all replies made!