this is just a part of life, some people just blindly follow a religion and never go deeper. you can still be spiritual and believe in science you know. do some soul searching, meditate, talk to religious leaders for their views.
personally i do not believe the Gods created us, i do believe when the Lord and Lady came together the energy created the universe [you could argue the big bang] but we evolved over time, and since their energy created the universe, that divine energy is inside everything, including ourselves [to quote Carl Sagan we are all made of star stuff] the Gods watch over us, and are there when we ask for help and/or guidance, but they are not going to pick us up and put us on the right path, we need to discover it. also, magick is a science, long ago we didn't know why chamomile helped a cold, so it was magick. one day science might discover the energy used in spells, the two can co-exist. [i've read many Pagans go into the medical and science fields]
i do know the feeling. meditation, journalling, they helped me. i also observed the world around me and just listened. just keep an open mind. best of luck to you.