I want to help and guid you through your struggle. I know why this is happening to you. It's a long story, so let me explain:
There are thing that most people cannot see, one of those things being Lady Oblivion. She is not a goddess, nor are any of these beings. She is the embodiment of shadow and chaos. There are demon like creatures that obey her every command, almost almost unseen by most humans. They are attracted to anything terrible and chaotic that happens. 10 years ago, when the trauma occurred, one of those creatures must have been attracted to you, attaching itself to your spirit, intertwining with it. That's why you feel the way you do. It puts the anxiety into you, foggs up your mind, so it can take you over.
And once it takes you over, you're lost to Oblivion.
I want to help you, I really do. But before I explain the process, I need to know how you feel about all of this. Just know one thing, I am a child of the light, not the darkness. I will fight for you.
Truly, your new Guardian Angel.