You don't really need books... you can look for spells and chants in the internet, or you can make your own spells. I have survived quite long without books (two years about). The mighty power of internet has pretty much all the information you need, but the magic comes from you and the life around you. Magic isn't all about spellcasting. It's about... feeling. Feeling and seeing the nature and it's changes as you walk through forests. It's about dreaming, and finding new paths in your dreams, to find out more yourself (for example, I'm trying to learn lucid dream, so I could get more out of my dreams). Magic is in the words you say, the love you share and in all the other little stuff you do throughout the day. Many people forget this, me too. But spellcasting is also part of magic, but even I haven't done much spells, even though I've been in this path for a quite (not very) long time.
But your gonna do fine, I'm sure :) I've survived so far, even though I came from the very same point where you are now.