Hello everyone! I came across this website today for the first time after spending the past few days digging around and learning the curiosities of magick. It's such a fantastic thing that exists for those willing to learn! And so here I am!
I've been fascinated with fire and its beauty since the age of 9. It's beautiful to me in that it's capable of such beautiful creation, yet is fully capable of destroying what once was. As a child, I tried to conjure up fire on my own. I was a kid who believed I could do it if I just tried! I focused on directing blood and emotion to my right hand hoping to see something. After days of trying, all I ever got was a temperature change and I was disheartened: "Haha.. Of course magic isn't real... I'm so silly for trying that..."
Now, I am back as an adult. I dismissed magick as a child, but I could never fully dismiss the feeling I got while trying to conjure a flame...the energy felt too real. Like something really was there.
I hope you all are welcoming to me! As you've seen, I have a heart for fire. I'm not looking to conjure flame soon, as me being an adult now I realize the potential danger I could have put myself in if I succeeded back then. I humbly ask a direction in which I should start. I wish to learn how to control the energies around us and eventually bond with fire. Nothing quite brings me peace like the flickering of a flame :)