First of all, please learn to use correct grammar and punctuation, as it is very exhausting trying to read all of that in one long sentence. Second, learn how to make a honey jar, those are the best things to work with in situations like yours. I won't give you much information on how to make one, as I do not want to tell you wrong since I have limited knowledge on them myself, but they are very reliable and can work with just about anything.
Also, more practically speaking, who don't you just talk to him about your feelings and suggest an arrangement of some sort that would be convenient for the both of you to have more contact? Just my opinion.