Well i suggest you to do this dynamic meditation
This meditation is a fast, intense and
thorough way to break old, ingrained patterns
in the bodymind that keep one imprisoned in
the past, and to experience the freedom, the
witnessing, silence and peace that are hidden
behind these prison walls.
The meditation is meant to be done in the
early morning, when the
whole of nature becomes alive, the night has
gone, the sun is coming up and everything
becomes conscious and alert.
"This is a meditation in which you have to be
continuously alert, conscious, aware,
whatsoever you do. The first step, breathing;
the second step, catharsis; the third step, the
Remain a witness. Don?t get lost. It is easy
to get lost. While you are breathing you can
forget; you can become one with the
breathing so much that you can forget the
witness. But then you miss the point. Breathe
as fast, as deep as possible, bring your total
energy to it, but still remain a witness.
Observe what is happening as if you are just
a spectator, as if the whole thing is
happening to somebody else, as if the whole
thing is happening in the body and the
consciousness is just centered and looking.
This witnessing has to be carried in all the
three steps. And when everything stops, and
in the fourth step you have become
completely inactive, frozen, then this
alertness will come to its peak." Osho
The meditation lasts one hour and has five
stages. Keep your eyes closed throughout,
using a blindfold if necessary. It can be done
alone, and can be even more powerful if it is
done with others.
First Stage: 10 minutes
Breathing chaotically through the nose, let
breathing be intense, deep, fast, without
rhythm, with no pattern ? and concentrating
always on the exhalation. The body will take
care of the inhalation. The breath should
move deeply into the lungs. Do this as fast
and as hard as you possibly can until you
literally become the breathing. Use your
natural body movements to help you to build
up your energy. Feel it building up, but don?t
let go during the first stage.
Second Stage: 10 minutes
EXPLODE! ? Let go of everything that needs
to be thrown out. Follow your body. Give
your body freedom to express whatever is
there. Go totally mad. Scream, shout, cry,
jump, kick, shake, dance, sing, laugh; throw
yourself around. Hold nothing back; keep
your whole body moving. A little acting often
helps to get you started. Never allow your
mind to interfere with what is happening.
Consciously go mad. Be total.
Third Stage: 10 minutes
With arms raised high above your head, jump
up and down shouting the mantra, ?Hoo!
Hoo! Hoo!? as deeply as possible. Each time
you land, on the flats of your feet, let the
sound hammer deep into the sex center. Give
all you have; exhaust yourself completely.
Fourth Stage: 15 minutes
STOP! Freeze wherever you are, in whatever
position you find yourself. Don?t arrange the
body in any way. A cough, a movement,
anything, will dissipate the energy flow and
the effort will be lost. Be a witness to
everything that is happening to you.
Fifth Stage: 15 minutes
Celebrate! With music and dance express
whatsoever is there. Carry your aliveness
with you throughout the day.
If your meditation space prevents you from
making noise, you can do this silent
alternative: rather than throwing out the
sounds, let the catharsis in the second stage
take place entirely through bodily
movements. In the third stage, the sound
Hoo! can be hammered silently inside, and
the fifth stage can become an expressive