Before lurching into something you do not know or fully understand, why not try connect with something you understand or partially understand... like your own spirit.
Observe the many things that make you feel elated, happy, at peace. Take note of the things that do the opposite. Feed your spirit with the things that elate it. It could be music, reading, writing, meditating or walking. Once you learn to feed your spirit, the roads will open for you.