So..i found this website while i was searching things about m-shifting and p-shifting because ive had mixed feelings (not really feelings but still) about sonething that went on a few years ago that still bothers me. I was at my old church around my 13th birthday (no joke i turned 13 about 2 weeks prior to this happening.) And i felt like skipping service one day because i felt like something was telling me to not go. So i passed on the service. I was walking around the parking lot when i just started walking over to the enterance to the wothe. Ive always been creeped out by the dark and the unknown and the forrest in general at dark but i just walked in. I forgot to mention this but i had a beyond terrible cramp it felt like but it got worse as i got closer to the. forrest. I was having a pretty hard time walking when i got in the forrest but i just heard these howls when i got in there and i started to howl. I dont remember how many times i did howl but i wemember the first one i think came out rusty lol but i cant remember what happened after a few more howls. It hurt like hell though i remember that. I did some research online about lycans and it said a whole bunch of stuff i experianced afterwards but my fingers hurt from typing and ill just leave off here. You can ask questions though if you want i dont mind lol i created an account on this website for the feedback. I just want to know whats going on im so confused :S
Ohh and before i forget i have these episodes where i see either a pack of wolves or just the face of a timber wolf. I was playing soccer in gym class outside and i was running after the ball when i stopped and only saw a view from above of a pack of wolves. I didnt black out or anything but i physically saw them. I didnt see any of my class mates, the teacher, goal, EXC. The weirdest thing is that they only usualy happen on the night of the first full moon. I feel like ive lost the relationship i had with that spirit and i want to feel the power i once did on full moons. I dont feel the same energy anymore and it kinda hurts knowing this could be happening but its not..the dreams never stopped though..
you can' physically transform into a wolf, it's not humanly possible, it's a fictional concept. originally it was used by terrified people in the dark ages who lived near woods to explain how a wolf could appear and disappear suddenly, killing livestock. now, it's used to enchant and mesmerism peoples imaginations.
it could be your animal spirit, or spirit guide though, again, this doesn't mean you'll turn into a physical wolf or wolf-human hybrid. Your spirit guide is just that, there to guide you in tough situations. in Native American culture there's a coming of age ceremony around 13 where one finds their spirit guide. each tribe had different methods, but the results were through a vision or set of circumstances the animal would reveal itself to you.
wolves are a very common one, a lot of people love their mystery, admire the pack qualities as well as their appearance and what they represent. if you wish to learn more about a wolf totem to see if it speak to you, i'll include a link to a site i like:
remember though just liking an animal doesn't make it your guide. you should try meditating near the forest on the question 'who is my spirit guide' while not always physical [normally it's a vision] the animal should appear.