what is it i do?

I never said anything to criticize you friend... I use a lot of math, and science in my magic, and I can't test an object I made against spirits, without having one I can prove is there to test against... But I could easily do math required to see if it fully works on paper, along with it's unintended and surprising use.

so... I guess without knowing your own math and physics it's not helpful, but don't be so quick to get defensive.

I sincerely apologize. I haven't had good experiences with people bringing math into this and I have been attacked once by one. Anywho I actually put ideas of physics into my power. I use momentum a lot to accumulate large pools of earth energy and I often creat my shield with "rebar" to reinforce them. just always remember energy is energy. The more of a flow you can creat the easier it will be

Well, maybe with some work we can discuss physics and math more in detail to find these answers... I'm curious how one would manipulate such energies, and use them in such a manner. Send me a message and we will converse.

You're not getting "attacked by spirits" because of your angel and demon heritage. You might feel yourself to have much in common with both of these spirits, but frankly, both spirits define the broad spectrum of human emotion, and it is not difficult to feel a kinship with them. Fully 75%, at least, of the "otherkin" who claim such, claim to be descended somehow from angels and/or demons.

Regardless of what you believe though, you're getting attacked because you go out lit up like a torch. You present yourself as an aggressive entity, and so spirits respond to you as such. You expect trouble, so you find it. Learn to control this and you find dealing with such things to be a much more serene matter.

As far as the description of your attacks on the spirits, I assure you that these methods, while effective in disrupting their presence for a time, rarely cause permanent harm in any way, shape or form, and I would not suggest you seek out more formidable entities.

What you are referring to is not necessarily a specific form of magic. Theses essentially amount to aggressive acts of will and energy manipulation. What I find curious about it, is that you specifically speak of avoiding dark magic and curses, and yet only speak of practicing "magic" intended for combative purposes - which in itself can be construed as dark.

I mean practices of magic drawn from suffering and not life. Every time I encounter curses or evil magic my power shoots to about 5 to 6 times my current maximum and I almost become a passenger in my own body and the energy is my own. Not to mention I change forms from night to day

Not to mention I don't go seeking trouble, I have been getting attacked and fed upon since I was young. Only when I awakened my sight was I able to see that everywhere i go there is a least one spirit that would IMMEADIATELY come at me trying to feed off my energy. All the extremely expierienced wiccans I know call me a magnet. I walk around with my power entirely internalized btw.

Its very interesting what you can do, it seems to be very advanced energy work, how you were able to become so advanced without many years of practice is beyond me. But if you keep practicing and researching i am sure that you will find answers.

I appriciate that man. I have only been at this for about 5 months but I've already learned a lot and I hope to show more people that magic is a force of life and protection. Mind you I know a lot more. I'm far more adept at working earth and fire energy, creating contructs to defend areas and making earth and fire energy into subforms such as sand, glass and molten energy. I just need tips on pure energy manipulation.

If you want you can email me and we can talk about energy manipulation

Power is infinite, and "maximums" are all in perception. When you feel that something is evil or malignant, it is only natural for your fight or flight reaction to kick in, and for you to therefore feel more powerful as adrenaline floods you. Feeling more powerful, you simply are more powerful because you stop viewing yourself with the same limitations.

What I mean by going out lit up like a torch, is that with all of your defensive measures and offensive preparations, you go in girded for war. Anything seeing you gets wary, immediately, and those that feel capable might challenge you on sight. It is much the same reaction of the general population if you were to walk into a convenience store armed and wearing body armor - it gives the impression of menace, or the preparation to menace, even if that is not truly your intent.

Plus if you naturally run very positive in terms of energy, this attracts attention. The brightest flame attracts the most moths.

Spirits are everywhere, and when we are children we see them most. Some feed on fear, but most just observe, and seem terrifying as we become more aware of them.