To start with I will say to you love, There is no shame in being afraid. I promise you that none hear can honestly tell you that they have no fear of anything.
How ever its something that you do have to conquer. Living in fear is one of the worst things that can happen to a person. I know because I know what its like to be robed at Gunpoint. For a long time I would cry myself to work. Knowing that I had to get out of the car in the dark to go into a building.
I Finlay could take it no more and sought out help from a therapist.
Would magic have helped? I'm not ruling it out. But you see you have to be able to have confidence when you are casting. I was in the place where I had no confidence not in my self much less in my casting.
So the Idea I'm trying to get across to you. Is this.
Magic works with your energy's. Fear will distort these energy's.
Seek help, find someone that you can talk to, whether therapist of friend or family.
Conquer that fear and don't let it conquer you.
Love and Light,