Thank you very much for your keen advise! I am a realist to a point putting Kant into his shadow and know where you are coming from. This is where my internal fight begun long time ago. The universe has strange and very persistent ways to make itself, and messages, known though.
Without me writing close to a novel of explanation to validate my words, me stating 'I know' will just have to suffice.
I know of the immense power of spells. I know of the ignorance of many using them unaware, or uncaring, of consequences. I know of the power of the in between. I know that in the end, there is a lot none of us will ever know. I know I am naive in many ways but chose to stay this way - as it is supposed to be. I have been given a gift without an answer of what this gift is but a guide to show me how to use it when needed. Needed for others or to call upon for strength. I came to this site for very selfish reasons as I am in need of protection (how do I know?)and to find a way out of the situation I am in. Yet words formed a question all in thoughts of a loved ones well being. Conscience? Coincidence? Self sacrifice? Underlying mental disorder? How do we know things when strongly we feel we do? When do we trust a feeling and when is it best we don't? Are there signs or is the mind merely finding answers to questions where there are none? Forgive me my philosophizing and rambling, simply a morning coffee wandering of mind.
Thank you again for with not saying much, you have said what I probably needed to hear to find my own answer :)