My boyfriend and I just ended our relationship of almost 9 years. I'm mostly to blame, due to a car accident we had 4 years ago. I've been depressed, gone through many surgeries, and taking out my frustration out on him. We've been through good and bad together and I have given him many chances before, and he won't even give me 1 chance to work on this. I know deep down that he's my soul mate and I want him to change his mind and start anew. Please someone help me get him back.