Hi all :D
I'm soo new to this site like it's 6/20/12 and just now i became a member :P
i'm-- i'd really appreaciate it if someone helped me. You see, i study magic since i was 12, never tried a spell that i need items though, except a necklace or something like that, that i can have with me at all times, i have a big family, i don't want them to know. I started at 12 when i got in puperty cause suddenly i had these strange dreams at night, seeing people i have never before and they asked me things, told me things. I came to realise a long time after what was happening and that's when i found the site, i hadn't became a member though, just read forums and spells everything that i could find info from. Anyways i realised who or should i say what these people were when i saw a family member that passed away coming to me asking me why did she died and what happened to her. Since then, i take my dreams very seriously and have also predicted to a friend that he'd get canser when one night and for 2 years!!! after i kept seeing his funural everynight. Long story short, that wasn't why i made this i started studying demonology, being very interested in those beings and met a person who claimed he had a guardian demon. He allowed me to talk with him (cause they have such a strong relationship they have become one)and he asked me for help, after helping him, he said i could ask him everything i wanted to know as an exchange or thank you for my help...and i asked how could i find mine. He told me we can't find them and that they come to us but he said that their signs if i have and again blah blah blah indeed mine had found me. The night i learned that i was like idk....that wasn't FAKE!! about to get possessed. I was shaking, burning and let me tell you i always have a low body temperature that wasn't FAKE!! what the person's demon told me to was first, relax, trying to talk to my Guardian but at the same time allow her to have control. I was scared, i didn't think i should i just met her but i did and she only had the chance to control my hands and say her name. Time went on, we we're close and she's so amazing but i can't help but to be a bit skeptic, is who i am, sometime's i have to see to believe and i thought that this person was fake, my expirience surely wasn't but....
Can anyone tell me, based on this is it true? I don't want it to be a lie, i'm a lonely person and i have been through bad things, she was my power, kept me fighting, kept me company, our bond seems to get weak and i'm afread i'm losing her, is there anything i can do to make it strong?! We don't talk as much, her voice is faint in my head now..but i want her back. I told my brother about this and he said she didn't get her place without a fight. I thank her but i feel worthless that i can not help her, i know her story and i want to help just like she did. By the way it's not her giving me the dreams and visions i'm something else idk what either can someone tell me abt it too? If you need any other info just ask.