Last night, I had this dream that actually really bothered me when I woke up. I am having a hard time figuring out what the symbolism is, if there is really that much symbolism at all. This is what I can remember:
I was at some sort of gathering, it could be just a busy hoard of buildings around me or it could be a sort of "passing period" in a high school. I find my current boyfriend, who for the sake of the story we will call Joe. Joe looks different from normal. His face is unusually smooth, his beard is not very "Full." He had several piercings, a lip, ears, nose and septum piercing. His clothes were different, he didn't look like the same person at all. I come up to him & start questioning what caused him to completely change his very appearance. He gets offended, I start to cry when he doesn't care. I say, "You are not the Joe I fell in love with!" Some time passes, & I find him with these kids who are notorious drug addicts in this town & they offer him a cigarette. He takes it & I get upset. He used to be addicted & then stopped, so now he picked up the habit again & I was both mad, upset & disappointed. I take the cigarette out of his mouth & throw it at the one who offered it then punched him hard in the chest. I sort of "stumbled" away, crying, & then I start to run. That's when I notice I have a huge, black backpack on. I see Joe running as well, then I get steaming mad. I turn around, still running, & start going toward him with the intent to punch him in the face. He avoids me & goes through a doorway. I turn & try to run to catch up with him. Suddenly, it's really hard to run. I make it through the doorway Joe went through & don't bother to use the two flights of stairs & just jump over the railing to get closer to him without wasting so much time. That's when I wake up.
What could it really mean? It's really bothering me.