Honey, it is time to let go. I would hug you if i was there but it has been a whole 5 years... There will be others. Do not let this past love inhibit your ability to live your life to the fullest. I truly understand it hurts, but it is time to let go.
yes, love spells work, but they always have a price (usually pain of some sorts). I really think that you do not need a love spell, but a way to let out your feelings instead. When you let them out, you feel loads better and it will help you get over your feelings.
I really hope you look for a better alternative than spell work. Love spells never end well.