So when I was a little kid, I started having these dreams. I was in an uniform, shouting at some soldiers. They would all start running when I speak and than they bring some people. They're skinny, scary, crying. I feel happy when I see them, and I start speaking in German. I shout than, and they take the people away. They scream and cry, the soldiers hit them, and they go away. I take a bottle and drink.
For nights, I had the same dream over and over, but there was a slight difference. Sometimes, I'd be the person who shouts and drinks, but sometimes I'd be just a watcher who sees that scene. (I never got to see if the shouting person was male or female -.-)
And since I was little, those scenes got me seriously disturbed. I would scream and cry at night. So I told my mom and dad but they said it's just nightmares that every kid has, that it's just from a movie or w/e, I don't really remember much about it, but the dreams are vivid in my memory.
So it did last for like a month, but than it stopped so I forgot about it. And than a few months ago, it started again. It's usually places I've never seen before, I shout at some people, usually soldiers, in German, they bring people than promise they're gonna "catch" (o.O) more. Than they take them to execution. It was all places and situations I've never seen before or read about. So I did a bit of a research and got translations of the speaking in the dreams, found pictures of the places, people, just read more about it... And it's the Holocaust! I am very, very scared. Why is it happening? I'm not pretending. This has me freaked out. I wake up in the middle of the night regularly, just because of those dreams. I got nothing to do with the Holocaust, and I don't like it! The problem is, I never felt freaked out or disturbed by the Holocaust pictures, stories... Of course I'm against it! It's wrong, and I really could never even think of doing it, but I never felt the disgust towards those deeds like I do when it comes to other things.
Also, I don't speak German nor I hear people speak in German. I never seen most of those places in my dreams before the research, and I didn't know much about the WW II. Also, the people in my dreams look just like some victims of the Holocaust in the pictures I found... As far as I know no one in my family was a Nazi in WW II.
This is very scary to me. I'm not a bad person, I don't want to have dreams of this, it's very confusing. I just want it to stop but whatever I try it keeps coming back. One lady that's interested in past lives, tarot, and stuff, says it's a past life memory and I have to do something to make up for my crimes and it will stop, but it can't be, right? It's not possible. I'm not evil. Please help me, and please don't blame me if it's true... I wouldn't do it, I'm not a Nazi, I accept all people... :(