I'm 19 years old. I have a wife and a stepson. I love my wife and my stepson more than anyone else in the world.
Or so I thought.
5 years ago, I was with a girl. She was my first real girlfriend, and we had a very close relationship for about 8 months. Her parents really hated me for something terrible I had done when I was 13. So, after that 8 months, she was put into a different school, and forbidden to talk to me. They blocked my number on her cellphone, and I had no clue what their new house phone number was. She didn't use the internet much.
I thought I lost her.
These 4 years since she moved I have been searching and searching for her. I don't know why I am so desperate to contact her, to see her again, but I've been searching incessantly, and finally I have found her, on myspace. But she doesn't sign on very often.
Again, I love my wife very much, but something is telling me that I have to see this girl again. I don't know why I am so driven to see her, but I cannot be at ease until I do. There are several problems.
I live in Florida, she lives in Pennsylvania.
I am broke.
I have no means of contacting her, so finding her/talking to her would basically require stalking her. Which I will not do.
My wife will be entirely against me going.
Here's what I know.
She is a practicing Witch.
Where she works (it's on her myspace profile).
She has a baby boy.
Years and years ago, she told me this: "You're never alone. Just look at the Moon and we'll be together."
I am looking for a means to contact her. I have been considering Astral Projection, because from the comment she made a long time ago, I believe she knows how to project. The problem is, I don't. I have tried before several times and failed utterly, and I do not think I am capable of focusing on it in my fevered state of mind.
What are some other ways I could contact her? Spells, non-magical solutions, anything? Please help me. I am desperate.