Alright I gotta be honest, I think I maybe going insane.
In the past months I keeping feeling something around me that is just...Unnatural.
What I mean is that these past three months I can't help but feel like someone is following me and watching me,especiallyin my bedroom at night or in the fields, when it is impossible that there could be anyone near me. The being followed feeling started right after my body went completely numb for four days straight, now in the past month I keep contemplating suicide.
-something I would never want!!
The problem is that I'm terrified of myself and every time the thoughts of suicide come into my mind, It seems like something I'm being told to do. But then later when the thoughts have passed- I have no desire to kill myself and I can think of a hundred reasons not to.I still feel that weird numbness on parts of my body around the same time as the reaccuring thoughts and thats why I'm afraid this is something not normal. I was hoping that someone had ever heard of something similar even in the least to my case and could tell me what's going on and how to stop it.