|On The Other Wrist
When loneliness is a constant pain and there seems like there is so cure, where do you turn? When darkness surrounds you and there is no light to be found, how can you see your way out? No escape! It eats its way into your mind, then you find, the knife. The comforter. The redeemer. The knife. Like a warm blanket on a cold day. The knife. Like an angel that guides the way. The knife. At first the pain is searing and it becomes the punishment you deserve. You're a horrible disgusting human being. You need only a slow torturous death. You're a mistake. You shouldn't be here. Then you look down. The blood is gushing. You panic. What have I done? This needs to stop? Why am I so weak? I need to clean this up before someone sees. What will others think when they see this. Finally you loose enough to pass out. The searing pain, the self abuse, the panic attack, forms itself into almost an orgasmic state. And then the process repeats. On the other wrist.
My name is Rowan and I am here to meet new people who are of alternative faiths and search for new material that I could learn from because, after all, learning is a life long process. If you're like me, you were raised in a Christian home and you went to church everyday. Well as fate would have it, by the time I got to an age where I could reason for myself church didn't feel the same. Something just wasn't right. About a year or so after I sat with this feeling I decided to do something about it. I began my search, which lasted a year, and concluded that my solution was Wicca. For me Wicca just felt right, so, I went with that feeling and never turned back. I have been an Eclectic Wiccan for about 5 years now, researching and teaching myself as I come across new information. My main focus is healing and protection. My reason for this being that I happen to have Leukemia and throughout my log battle I have come to find that natural forms of healing work best for me and that I was told I was going to die while I was following a traditional course of mainstream medicine. Now I am healthy and fit as a fiddle although there are some days when my sickness gets me down.
Besides the more gloomy and depressing information, I love meeting new people as diversity excites me. I enjoy anything and usually tend to try my hand at anything new before I pass judgement upon it. So, now that you know about me I would like to get to know you. Please feel free to send me a message! :)