*NOTE* If you're going to mail me, have a subject. It's frustrating when I see random mails with no subject. What do you want!? A puppy? A dragon? Are you dying ? I don't know. You didn't put in a subject. Also, if I don't answer within a few days (or weeks), don't be discouraged; I'm just very busy with school and other things...
**ANOTHER NOTE** I can't cast spells for you, or turn you into anything other than what you are. If you ask me something like that, I'll either ignore you, or answer in a snarky or sarcastic way (Depending on the overall stupidity. )... Kapeesh?
Current Mood/Status: ...
Pseudonyms: Jax Ryland (the one I use the most for writing poetry and stuff); Isaiah Devegar; Xander
Nicknames/Other Names: Ray
Species: Physically human. Spiritually...something else?
Personality: It's very hard to describe. I guess I'm a doppelganger, of sorts; My personality changes depending on who I'm with [Well...That's probably the same for everybody...] . I don't really have a personality, I guess...but I'm generally like this:
-Defensive/cold at first (I don't really trust strangers...But if you're nice, then I may be nice back.)
-A bit of a loner/freethinker
-Animals (prehistoric mammals, birds, and cryptids [some are animals, so I guess they count?] , are on the top of my list]
-Crime shows [Law and Order: SVU is my favorite.]
-medical dramas [House M.D.~]
-most kinds of meat [I don't really care for fish, though...]
-Avatar the Last Airbender + Legend of Korra
-Anime (I have my main few, but I drift from fandom to fandom...)
-the taste of blood
-BL genres [Yes, I'm a closet pervert. Judge me if you will.]
-wandering around at night
-Listening to music [all kinds of rock...gospel...oldies...country...basically anything that piques my curiosity.]
- whiny little children
-people who whine when they have it good ("but daddy ...I wanted the iPhone 10...!")
-cliques in school (Why do humans feel the need to group together and ridicule anyone who acts "weird" to them? It's asinine.)
Spirit animal: Raven. I've seen it once in this nightmare I had...it looked like a normal raven, but it had these iridescent blue markings all over it's body.
-I have some form of ESP and I can predict things involuntarily(In dreams, visions, etc.) I can also use telepathy to communicate with my cockatiel, Sonny. She's not very interesting to 'talk' to, but we share emotions and simple thoughts.
I have a few abilities I've learned from a few different sources:
-"Seismic Sense" (I call it this, because I still like ATLA, but what I really do is sense auras and the energy around me. I practice by using a blindfold.)
-Fire Manipulation [No, not shooting flames from my fingertips. I've just learned to move small things, like the flames from a candle.]
-Energy Manipulation [May or may not tie in with the previous one. I can emit energy/heat from my hands that is noticable if somebody comes into contact with them. The feeling can be kind of uncomfortable if I'm emotional, and can be compared to...the tingly feeling you get in your palms when you rub them together...]
Moving on... here is some info about demonkin and therians:
-having a strong sense for honor, but also for freedom
-moody (especially when disturbed by someone)
-loners (cannot really attach to someone)
-feed on energy (I'm not sure if this is a demonkin trait, but...I do this...)
-heal quickly (personalexperience)
I got this info from a few different sources, and my everyday life. ^.^
() Know my theriotype/kintype
(X) I have mental shifted
(X) Have m-shifted in school
() Have m-shifted in the prescence of my parents
(X) Have m-shifted in the prescence of my friends
() I have p-shifted (physically shifted; There is no such thing. If you claim to have p-shifted, that's great. What drugs did you take? Okay, to put it seriously, the human body simply cannot change physical form, as horrible as it is. I have the soul of a damn monster . How frustrating do you think it is to deal with other humans, and this weak, pathetic form?)
() Have shifted on the astral plane
(X) Have phantom shifted (This is when you feel like you have the extemities/limbs of your animal/animals.)
(X) Had to deal with confused animals
Looks like: Not sure.
Actual breed: ??????
Body size: Large(?)
Height at shoulder: ???
Body length (not including tail): ???
Fur texture: ???
Fur length: Long(?)
Fur Color: Unknown. (Dark?)
Muzzle: Mesocephalic (mid-length)
Ears: Pointed (close in appearence to a maned wolf)
Eye color: Amber; possesstapetum lucidum?
Tail: Long and whiplike; used in a similar way as a cat(?)
Tail length: 4 ft. (122 cm.)(?) [Note: This is one of the only things I know for sure, because I feel this tail as a phantom appendage.]
Front/Back paws: Unknown. Long claws?
Some Human Stuff:
How I Age: Putting it very simply, my mental age is always going to be a little higher than my actual age. I don't really know why.
Age (Physically): Sixteen
Age (Mentally): 20something?
Eyes: brown to copper, and even occasionally tinted hazelly-green; flash like an animal's eyes do when my picture is taken (No, not red-eye...Silly peoples~)
-A long, whiplike phantom-tail. It swishes around, and moves according to my mood.
-An dark aura/energy that can cause discomfort. One of my good friends (who can see auras) has mentioned that it is "black with a grey center" and "demonic".
-Again, the phantom wings. Even though they aren't tangible, they cause some discomfort when I'm in small-ish places for long periods of time. Say...a car trip.
A little more info:
1. Most of the things above ^ only exist on the astral plane (minus the eye thing, the aura, and the aging thing), so don't PM me whining about what's possible/impossible. I don't want to hear it. I don't need know-it-alls (You know who you are.) running their mouths about things that I already know.
2. I don't hate humans. Humans are fascinating to me...but sometimes their ignorance is unbelievable. I like to "people-watch". Like Izaya ["Durarara!!" reference, anyone?] .
3. I look like a normal human, but there are a few things that, say...set me apart:
-Eyes that glow almost orange in the sunlight [my eyes are dark brown, just for reference.]
-A lower than normal body temp.(Usually around 97 degrees. I know the norm is 98.6, so...is 97 still in the normal range. Eh. Probably.)
-I'm quick on my feet, to say the least.
-I heal quickly/get over sicknesses quickly (Despite this, I tend to 'nurse' illness/injuries, thus making some people feel bad for me. I'm a very good actor, y'know...)
-I'm quite good at manipulating people
-My hands superheat sometimes (It's kind of comparable to holding chi/ki energy... But what doesn it feel like...? It's...hard to describe. It kind of feels like my hands are tingling and burning at the same time, and when I look at them, they're red, like I've been outside in the cold for too long.)
4. I sometimes frighten people unintentionally...
Song Lyrics [Most of these pertain to me in general, or I just like them.)
"Sticks and stones could break my bones, But anything you say will only fuel my lungs!"
Sarcasm [Get Scared]
"Death surrounds...my heartbeats slowing down...I wont take this worlds abuse...I wont give up, I refuse!"
~Not Gonna Die [Skillet]
"The last thing I heard was you whispering goodbye, and then I heard you flat line!"
~Not Gonna Die [Skillet]
"But here in the real world, it's not that easy at all...'cause when hearts get broken, it's real tears that fall..."
~Here In The Real World [Alan Jackson]
"...cowboys don't cry, and heros don't die. Good always wins, again and again..."
~Here In The Real World [Alan jackson]
"Wanted! One good-hearted woman to forgive imperfections in the man that she loves...Wanted! Just one chance to tell her how much he still loves her...he can't be sorry enough..."
~Wanted [Alan Jackson]
"...every long-lost dream lead me to where you are...lovers who broke my heart they were like Northern stars pointing me on my way into your loving arms...this much I know is true...that god blessed the broken road that lead me straight to you..."
~Bless The Broken Road [Rascal Flatts]
"...all I hear is her whisper my name...all I see is her hair tumble down...when i feel the touch of her hand in mine I find I'm dreamin' out loud..."
~Dreamin' Out Loud [Trace Adkins]
"...this blood on my teeth it is far beyond dry and I've captured you once but I wasn't quite right...So I'm telling you that you'll be safe with me..."
~I know I'm A Wolf [Young Heretics]
"...If I told you what I was, would you turn your back on me?And if I seem dangerous, would you be scared...?"
~Monster [Imagine Dragons]
"...Can I clear my conscience, if I'm different from the rest...?Do I have to run and hide? (oh oh oh oh)..."
Monster [Imagine Dragons]
"You're beautiful baby from the outside in...Chase your dreams but always know the road, that'll lead you home again...Go on, take on this whole world, but to me you know you'll always be...my little girl..."
My Little Girl [Tim McGraw]
"Hey sweetheart, how far is too fa-a-a-ar? 'Cause now I've got some blood on my hands..."
Hey Sweetheart [Nightmare of You]
"You're a mess, tangled with your confidence. You think you haven't sinned."
-Don't You Dare Forget The Sun [Get Scared]
"I told you That we could fly 'Cause we all have wings But some of us don't know why"
-Never Tear Us Apart [Paloma Faith]
Quotes and Poems
"I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity."
-Edgar Allen Poe
"Los Angeles is the city of angels, but it's far from heaven."
"Ignorance and rudeness are viruses anywhere you go, but intelligent people are the only ones who can find the vaccine."
"You need to do three things to survive as a freshman: Do your work, stay positive...and keep your goddammed hole shut!"
"Fine art is the beauty of that single fleeting moment of explosion. "
"People live their lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That's how they define "reality". But what does it mean to be "correct" or "true"? Merely vague concepts their "reality" may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to simply be living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs? "
"...Like I said: I hate violence. I just want to get stronger. Strong enough so that someday, I can contain my anger."
~Shizuo Hewajima (Episode 7, dub)
The walls are closing in
Crushing, mutilating me everytime my mind drifts backwards
I hate them
They did this; those two
They killed it.
It's heart, soul, everything
I loathe them
Disease and Impairment
They caused this too
They chewed up His organs
Chewed them up and spit them out, leaving them with barely a scrap of life to call their own.
Her mind was next.
It slowly dissappeared
Day by day
Week by week
So, so unfair!
Of everyone in this world, why me!?
My tears flow like a river.
A crimson river.
A river of blood.
But I'm already too far up that river.
And life never gave me a paddle.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
A storm cloud floats overhead
It engulfs the sky above
Rain begins to fall
Almost like Gods tears
Tears for his fallen children, all over the world he created
Thunder cracks, like a whip chiding a starving slave from years past
In my youth, I hid from this power,
This untamed force that I couldnt hope in a million years to control, as much as I yearned to
I hid, until it was all over
As the rain ceased, the world seemed to be reborn
Birds chirped and twittered
I relished in their carefree noises
The grass shined with dew, as if God himself had taken enough care to place a droplet on every individual blade
Ive learned to love the rain
It gives the filthy, unforgiving world new life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Into the void of darkness
The voices are too loud
The pain is too great
All are against me
Crimson is all I see, touch
Enveloping me in an impenetrable veil
I feel it
It's Your essense
It's so understanding and calm, yet so dark and unforgiving
Unforgiving to those who have wronged you
Bring those sorry souls into the darkness
While I watch
Safe in Your arms
**LAST UPDATED**: 6/28/16