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Waning Gibbous Moon
Waning Gibbous
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Location: forks,Washington
Last Seen: Wed, 06 Aug 2014

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Personal Bio
!Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. Youre just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up. Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there's an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She's in shock. She can't believe it. She saw what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad? Bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone's crying, your little brother still doesn?t know you killed yourself, he's too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days. It's two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go intodepression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn't succeed like you did, but she tried?your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't just effect you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before, I'm here for y0u!!!!. Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people out there that CaRe!!!

Bio time:

Song of the day; Stronger than i was by Eminiem

[Verse 1]

You used to say that I'd never be nothing without you

And I believe

I?m shot in the lungs, I gasp, I can?t breathe

Just lay here with me, baby, hold me please

And I'd beg and I'd plead, drop to knees

And I'd cry and I'd scream, "Baby, please don't leave!"

Snatch the keys from your hand

I would squeeze and you'd laugh

And you'd tease, you're just f*ing with me

And you must hate me

Why do you date me if you say I make you sick?

And you've had enough of me

I smother you, I'm 'bout to jump off the edge


But you won't break me

You'll just make me stronger than I was

Before I met you, I'll bet you I'll be just fine without you

And if I stumble, I won't crumble

I'll get back up and uhhh

And I'mma still be humble when I scream, "F*k you!"

Cause I'm stronger than I was

[Verse 2]

A beautiful face is all that you have

Cause on the inside you're ugly, and mad

But you're all that I love

I grasp, you can't leave

Please stay here with me, baby, hold me please

And I'd beg and I'd plead, drop to knees

And I'd cry and I'd scream, "Baby, please don't leave!"

but you left and you took everything I had left

And left nothing, nothing for me

So please don't wake me from this dream, baby

We're still together in my head

And you're still in love with me

'Til I woke up to discover that that dream was dead


[Verse 3]

You walked out, I almost died

It was almost a homicide that you caused cause I was so traumatized

Felt like I was in for a long bus ride

I'd rather die than you not by my side

Can't count how many times I vomited, cried

Go to my room, turn the radio on and hide,

Thought we were Bonnie and Clyde

No, on the inside you were Jekyll and Hyde I

Felt like my whole relationship with you was a lie

It was you and I, why did I think it was ride or die?

Cause if you coulda took my life you woulda

It's like you put a knife to my chest and pushed it right through to the

Other side of my back and stuck a spike, too, should've

Put up more of a fight, but I couldn't at the time

No one could hurt me like you could've

Take you back now, what's the likelihood of that?

Bite me, b*ch, chew on a nineteen footer

Cause this morning I finally stood up

Held my chin up, finally showed a sign of life in me for the

First time since you left me and left me with nothing but shattered dreams

And the life we could've had and we could've been

But I'm breaking out of this slump I'm in

Pulling myself out of the dumps once again

I'm getting up once and for all, f*k this sh*t

I'mma be late for the pity party

But you're never gonna beat me to the f*ing punch again

Took it on the chin like a champ so don't lump me in with the chump-ions

I'm done being your punching bag

It was November 31st today, would've been our anniversary

Two years, but you left on the first of May

I wrote it on a calender, was gonna call, but couldn't think of the words to say

But they came to me just now, so I put 'em in a verse to lay

And I thank you (uh) cause you made me (uh) a better person than I was

But I hate you (uh) cause you drained me (uh)

I gave you all, you gave me none

But if you blame me (uh), you're crazy (uh)

And after all is said and done

I'm still angry, yeah, I may be

I may never trust someone

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