i believe EVERY word that is written here and if i am charged with roleplaying then KNOW that i will keep returning.
Where to begin. Let's see, i have never done spell work beyond what was asked of me by my ex-husband, and being the "obedient" wife that i was at the time, i didn't question the risk or the consequence. Needless to say i felt Her full wrath. The "spell" in question was called "Invocation of Lilith" and those of you in the know, will know that it was folly on my part for even attempting such a reckless spell. i have moved on since then. i am here to learn, i make no claims of being able to do anything. i have only my willingness and open minded nature to bring to the table. Although others seem to think that my ability to read people, astral project and manipulate energy are worth something, i honestly don't see it that way. my vampiric nature is what has me shunned in most sites like this and i will reserve my opinion until i can see how i am treated here.
yes i am sanguinary
yes i am an energy feeder or what most people in my community call Psi
NO, i do not roleplay
if you want to believe that i do, so be it, i don't need your approval. i have been living with this "condition" longer than most of you have been alive.
Members of my community include:
the Esteemed Michelle Belanger (former psychic on the show Paranormal State), you have quite a few of her books in your shop here . ((if i am roleplaying and members of my community are roleplaying then why do you condone having her books in your shop? answer that please.))
Belfazaar Ashantison part of a web series called vampires (here is the link if you are open minded enough to watch: http://blip.tv/vampirestheshow) he also owns a store in New Orleans called Voodoo Authentica.
i knew coming here would be both a blessing and a mistake, but i am still here and until one of you in your "infinite wisdom" (sarcasm) decides to purge me................
I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it would seem that i can no longer reply to anyone who messages me in my mail box. that is unfortunate but not a deterrent, if you were in the chatroom and you would like to address me personally, i invite you to do that here, message me to my inbox and i will reply ON MY BIO, so that we can clear up ANY misconceptions any of us have.
Letters from people on my former profile:
Thank you for sending me that message, i won't, out of courtesy mention the name that you gave to me, but i will say that i am more than willing to educate ANYONE on what being vampiric is like from my own and from other peoples perspectives, i have many resources that i can give to individuals who have a sincere desire to learn and open their minds about these conditions.
hello andruid ,
Thank you for your kind words of encouragement, i don't profess to know everything and i know my own limitations, but what i can assure you and most other people is that i do not roleplay and my life is grounded in reality and a sincere desire to help others learn and grow and appreciate their uniqueness.
hello SBN ,
Thank you for your words of encouragement as well and rest assured, little children ON or OFF this site have never managed to silence me and i am here to learn as well as teach what i can, there are too many closed minded pagans / wiccans on THIS and many other sites and i am here to CHIP AT THE WALLS OF RESISTANCE by ANY MEANS POSSIBLE and the more people i have who are willing to back me up, the more i will stand tall and proud and strong in my convictions.
Letter to a VAMPIRIC Coven ON THIS SITE:
Because i have been silenced on this site due to the fact that a moderator believed that all things vampiric are roleplaying, i have to reply to you HERE,
i wish to be part of your group, Vampiric Elegance (i find the irony of this group existing on this site quite HUMOROUS, but i digress....here is your questionaire, filled out in my bio):
Number of years practicing magic or a Pagan religion: off and on for 20+ years
Why are you interested in joining Vampiric Elegance: i am both sanguinary and psi and i believe i can make a valid and worthwhile contribution to your group.
Do you claim to be a vampire or other type of Kindred? If so, what gives you grounds to make this claim: i have no biological claims that i can make supporting why i feel i need blood, but i can say that beyond medical testing and beyond any medications that i have taken, when i ingest blood products my health and well-being are improved. when i take in elemental, pranic and other types of energy, my health is also improved and i have greater clarity of mind as well heightened empathic abilities after feeding.
What can you offer Vampiric Elegance: i can offer a willingness to both teach (from my own personal experiences) and learn with an equally open mind.
What do you hope to gain from being a member of Vampiric Elegance, if accepted: i hope to enrich and be enriched within a group of like minded kin and possibly expand my knowledge while opening more peoples eyes up to the realities of "our" lives.
If granted membership, are you able to be an active member within the forums of this coven: yes
Do you have a Personal Bio and a Default Picture? If no, do this now: please read above
Gagging me will not stop me from writing on my page here. children, children, children......What can i say? i'll just have to join every group on this site to make every member and every moderator COME TO THIS PAGE and read everything that i have written here. If i have any more dreams, I DO NOT NEED THE FORUM TO TELL THEM, i have this space and as long as i can alter my bio, i will keep adding more and more words for people to read, so your gag is pointless.
This is the letter that i have written to the moderator who has banned and gagged me, i thought i would share it here:
Hello XXXXXXXXXXXXX, (name withheld to protect their identity)
Here is a link to the 6 books that a moderator in this site THINKS pertains to roleplaying:
Feel free to research those books, or if you want to stay closed minded, delete them, by all means. i guarantee that Ms. Belanger will want to speak to someone in here about that though.
When choosing a donor (and no i do not just TAKE energy or blood from any person....as some of you would believe.....do to so is morally reprehensible and against MY code of conduct) these are the guidelines that i live by:
THE DONOR BILL OF RIGHTS
This is an important read for anyone who wants to become a donor, as well as for Sanguinarians and Pranalarians to re-commit themselves to their Donors.
With permission from and as written by Belfazaar Ashantison (Founding member of NOVA, Founder and Elder of the House of Mystic Echoes, Esteemed member of the VVC - Voices of the Vampire Community and Founder/Owner of Donor_Sanctuary, a Yahoo Group to inform donors and real vampires alike of the safety issues involved with and for a donor/vampire relationship) with a supporting cast of good friends, Demoness Barbie, Maggie Bones, Spooky and his beautiful Des
This Bill of Rights is to promote the continued safety of the most precious of gifts to us, their life essence. It is suggested that this be signed by both the vampire and the donor on a 30/60/90 day trial basis. After this, the contract can be resigned for an extended period of time which can be either the 30/60/90/ or 6 months to 1 year. At the end of these contracts, discussions can be made as to whether or not changes should be done. What will be allowed and what will not be allowed.
1) As a donor, I know that it is through my personal sacrifice that the vampires needs are met. It is my loving nature that allows this relationship to continue. It is my right to decline to feed the vampire for any reason.
2) As a donor to a vampiric being, it is my right to know that I am in a vampiric/donor relationship that will be mutually beneficial to both me and the vampire I am donating my life essence to.
3) I am the essence provider. It is for me to decide whether or not I am able to give of my essence to the vampire I am with. I must be allotted time to heal and regain my essence in order to better support my vampiric partner.
4) At no time should my wounds not be allowed to heal.
5) At no time should I feel stressed about giving of my essence, if at any time I feel stressed, I have the right to back away from the feed, without being or feeling threatened by my vampiric partner.
6) Should I feel threatened in any way, shape or form, I have the right to seek guidance and council from other donors and leaders of the vampire community.
7) As a donor to a vampiric individual, I have the right to know that my position as lover, friend, family, roommate should not be jeopardized by my not wanting to give of my essence. In the slang, "it should not cost me my ass to be a donor."
8) As a donor, I should also respect the needs of the vampire and try to learn more about his/her feeding habits in order to help stabilize his/her imbalances in energy.
9) As a donor in a vampire/donor relationship, I realize that though I have many necessary rights, I must also take cares not to abuse the person I am donating my essence to. These same rights afforded me in this Bill of Rights should also be extended to the vampire I am donating too.
10) Ultimately it is my right to know that I will be safe in all aspects of the vampiric/donor relationship and should I ever feel that my safety is jeopardized, I have the right to walk away clear and free.
Ultimately, it is our (both the donor and the vampire) responsibility to insure that we are not abused. It is our (both the donor and the vampire) personal responsibility to leave a vampire/donor relationship that we feel is abusive in any nature. We can not be abused unless we allow ourselves to be.
THE BLACK VEIL (part of the code of conduct by which i live my nightside life):
Do you think that we choose this way of life? We have about as much choice in this as a Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual or Trans person does when it comes to their "preferences" in life. We are born this way, we will not be "cured" nor would we ask for a cure. Like it or not, it forms part of the basis of who and what we are.
It would be nice if i could reply and/or defend myself on this post: http://www.spellsofmagic.com/read_post.html?post=393668 ( This topic has now been deleted and no issue has been resolved yet and i will NOT let it rest)