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I'm in constant pain and fear. Ever since last June I have been having stomach trouble. It's a horrible fire like feeling in my upper abdomen, followed by vomiting (and vomiting does not make me feel any form of relief either). I have gone to the ER twice now because the symptoms keep coming back. A CT scan was done, and they said I had gastritis. I take Omeperazole (Prilosec) twice a day. an acid reducer once a day before a meal, and I try to eat small meals. I've cut out dairy, acidic foods, spicy foods, and I don't take pain relievers.

I also have terrible anxiety, so now, whenever I start to feel the symptoms coming on (or I think they're coming on when they aren't), I have full blown panic attacks, which just make the symptoms worse.

I don't know what to do anymore... I'm at a loss, and I admit to having suicidal thoughts. I have called the crisis lines a few times now to talk to someone about these feelings. I don't have a plan to hurt myself, but those feelings are there...

I'm scared. I'm so tired of being scared... please don't come into this thread and berate me. I don't need that right now, I beg you. I could really use some friends... I don't have any.

And I don't mail me about some powerful so-and-so from WHEREVER who could heal me for a fee. I don't have any money anyway, so leave me alone with that crap, thank you.