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I have scoured and searched these forums for hours in search of answers to my questions, and in the midst have probably over looked them. When I was younger I stumbled upon what I had only thought of at the time as telekinesis and since I was not a devoted christian at the time I pursued it with a vigor. A few months later I stopped and then I became a christian. It keeps coming back though (specific feelings, different happenings, etc. if you would like to know more I can tell you what happened to me when i started out, its some pretty interesting stuff tho some might say its normal) and I am having trouble piecing the two together. The use of magick and Christianity, seeing as i was raised to not believe/think poorly of the first, seem almost impossible to piece together. I'm just confused about it all and i need answers because no matter how I try I can not just walk away from it. Stuff even happens when I'm not thinking about it. I keep coming back and it's not always a conscious decision to come back. So if anyone can point me in the direction of answers or help me out I'd really appreciate it. How Christianity and Magick can be together is the biggest one so far. I have searched, and will continue to search the forums for answers. Thank you so much