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I'm new to this site so tell me if I'm not using things correctly. I have a question and need some guidance. My familiar 'Poe' had passed away two years ago last month. The death itself was horrific enough with us both falling together and him about two inches from my face when it happened. I gave him a beautiful burial wrapped in beautiful cloth with herbs and crystals in it under his favorite willow tree to give him easy passage of his choosing. This past month he has been on my mind constantly with anything about cats,familiars, or even willows putting me in tears. Last year around this time I wasn't this distraught. But now I can't get him out of my head and was wondering if there may be a different reason than just missing him. Any help?