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ok im not trying to make myself out to be here or anything like that just merely to state facts but my average life consists of doing average things mostly no great things when i try to do great things it doesnt work and this is when i follow the routine that everybody tries to follow the one that is most suitable for the individual now this is the part I dont understand the only time im able to achieve great things is when im sleep deprived I litterally dont understand it .. its like the minute it goes past the time im suppose to be up it goes into the minus hour as in the more minute hours there is the more time I havent slept for and the bigger that amount is i can do great things and the more better I am so basicly its like i get better by going in reverse is there any possible explanation to this because it cant be magic even though im clairvoyant