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Hello! I'm in need of perspective.

I'm currently looking into further developing my eclectic path, and I know I want to involve Gaia worship in it. I see Gaia as Earth and Earth's spirit. For a while now, I've struggled with the belief in multiple deities. I know I can see them as symbolic facets of the Divine, but I feel like I'd need to have literal belief in them. Polytheism is confusing me. I'm not sure I can appreciate multiple gods and goddesses. I mainly just see Gaia as a huge interest for me. I guess, how can I come in touch with gods and goddesses if I'm struggling with this idea yet want to believe it fully? Please, try not to judge. I'm really struggling here.