I read every single word. This is a great post, for me an eye opener. I too can relate to all of this, although my connection is w/two different people, so I guess you could day I have two twin souls. Each relationship being different in some ways from they other.
The first being my identical twin sister (Sheena). A majority of what was said describes Sheena and I. In the sense that twins start as a whole, then split. Shes part of me in a big way. She's Part of me, my soul. We're each our own person, but make one another whole... in a way. When a twin loses the other at birth that twin can seance that somethings off his/her whole life. The same w/me, I can seance if shes hurt or if somethings just off w/her. I cant explain it, its just a feeling I/we both get. As kids my twin and I couldn't play hide and seek... We'd always go right where they other was hiding w/o any effort. When she got hurt I was the one to come down stairs screaming, yet it was my twin who needed stitches! I know when I'll get sick, because she gets it first...always! We even had our own language. we cant hear each others thoughts, but we can read each other w/o any words being spoken. Being an identical twin isn't like having a regular sibling. We're connected in deeper different way. When were away from each other for a long time its difficult.
The second is my husband. We met when we were teenagers. We've been together for 11 years now. Everything, and I mean everything you said applys to my husband and I. In every way, The good and the bad. I agree 100% when you said "You can get lost in your "twins soul". Ive allowed myself to take on caring for him, his needs, wants, which of course a wife does that anyway, but in doing so I didn't/haven't tended to my own needs. The next thing I know im realizing I've lost part of myself. With that part gone, i'm no longer me! to take care of him, his needs, wants. Its just as you said. I feel that I've molded to him, letting my life goals slip away, forgetting who I am. and what I want. Don't get me wrong I love my husband w/all my heart just the thought of being with out him (which in the past i have) deeply pains me. I feel as if, losing part of who i am has caused issues between us (which you said). were not like we use to be. we fight, argue, we cant seem to communicate anymore w/o it turning into an argument. Maybe in a way i upset w/him for the change, (even though its my own doing) or cause i feel held back. just thinking of what we've become brings tears to my eyes. I find myself feeling alone, LOST! Like "Im" just off. For so long i couldn't figure out what happened w/us, w/me, but this makes perfect sense!! I need to get "ME" back in order to love him right... or anyone else for that matter, I need to work on myself, love myself first. So id like to Thank you for this post its opened my eyes in a big way. I haven't been on this site long, but the people here have tought me a lot in a short time. so again, Thank you!
