First I'd like to state that I am actually a girl. She, not he. (But for some reason it's funny I'm considered a boy online a lot.)
Next, I've heard the "Bound for a very good reason" speech a lot, and while I do not mean to totally disregard it, I can't stand being bound. I feel like I'm never touching the ground, I can barely sense anything, and yet I'm like a moth to a flame(and vice versa) with the magickal. If you look up the effects of a blocked chakra, you will see what I've felt my entire life. Isolated, depressed, and lacking the instinctual drive to live. I've had to push myself a lot just to make it through high school, let alone have a social life. So while I can promise caution on my part, I will take whatever consequences which may occur from unbinding myself. I can't live knowing that I'm entirely cut off from Mother Earth.
That being said, I thank you all for your advice, and there were some great suggestions. I will definitely keep meditating, and grounding multiple times a day sounds like a good idea too. (Thanks ElementalGuy!) Finding a way to poison the thorns sounds like an interesting idea too, Demosthenes, but I feel exposing myself to "toxic" energies may be too risky. This binding is, unfortunately, very firmly woven in my root chakra. (People have been thrown out of my mind, magick doesn't affect me & more because of this thing). Poisoning the root may poison the tree, so to speak. I think that would be a very last resort type of thing to try.
Now that channeling with another witch idea really caught my attention. If I could meditate to focus out, while the other channels in, that may be a way to go about this. Thank you for your suggestion, Serpentfire2. I'll be asking a few friends about this later. I'm glad to say I know a few people who would be willing to help me already. :)
As for more back story- all I know about my parents is some medical history and my biological mother wanted me in a Christian home. I know both sides of the family liked the outdoors and horses, but neither listed "magick" or "witchcraft" under their interests. I checked. Which would make my life a lot easier. I'm trying to get in contact with them actually, so maybe one day I'll know but until then- meditation and grounding it is.
