I dont know much and what I do know I read. I dont learn well this way. Im having trouble maintaining long term relationships and I think maybe (Im not really referring to magic here) Im to empathetic. I get enveloped in other peoples lives and excitements and when the go on about their lives Im left feeling empty. Im thinking maybe I can find a way to take control of how other peoples company effects me. I dont want to be on an emotional roller coaster for the rest of my life. Im thinking maybe the rash of mental unstable that seems the effect my generation is that we have lost touch with Something that ought to be there to link us and stabilize us. I have to reject the Christian father because I dont think god is that apart from us. But I keep feel like Im grasping at something in other people but Im mute. Does that make sense? I guess Im looking for a better grasp on the things I cant explain. Do you think magic could be something everyone feels and maybe someone manic or depressed has lost touch with it?