Okay, I've gotta keep this short.
Thursday I was reading about hexes, curses, and voodoo, and had a really bad erge to use it on every single person whos bullied me. Normally, I wouldnt even consider it, but this time I actually thought about it a little.
The next mourning, I really wanted to hit my best friend. And hard. I am usually NEVER violent, and hate the thought of hurting someone, but for no reson what so ever, I really wanted to hurt him. Then, in dodge ball @ gym, I felt a strong need to hurl dodge balls at the faces off everyone at the opposing team (this was like 2nd period) but I was REALLY tried. Usually, when I walk, I walk gracefully, and twist and turn a lot when dodging the balls, and avoiding people in grounds. (Ive done this for fun so many times its automatic now), but this time I was clumbsy, and ungraceful.
However at volley ball try outs, I gave myself a Little reiki, and was fine. Even tho I gave my self reiki in the mourning, in the afternoon, I was fine.
Then, that night I sat in my room, and daydreamed about choaking my dog. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!? I realized all the strange happanings, and was like O.o. Am I crazy!?
No. You're not going insane, don't worry. You may just be ultra-sensitive and suggestible and maybe reading about curses and such got you stirred up.
Maybe take some time off from reading about such workings and see how you feel. You probably also might want to do a little internal work to investigate why reading such stuff affects you so. Maybe you aren't shielded enough emotionally and mentally - i don't know. Some people develop more permeable boundaries when they start training their psychic skills.
And just for the record, Voodoo (Vodou, Vodoun) is a religion - NOT a system of magic. Any one who tells you they have a Voodoo spell or a Voodoo curse is ignorant or doesn't know better. They're usually using hoodoo magic and calling it Voodoo.
Most Voodoo adherants don't practice magic and actually get very angry when people assume that they do. Voodoo is an initiatory religion - you must be initiated and trained through a proper house before you can claim that as your RELIGION. The Voodoo of New Orleans is an entirely different animal than Haitian Vodoun - but that's a whole different topic!
I know what you mean though, LilacCura. I wrote that rant on Voodoo more for the general public's information.
:3 Thanks. I thought hoodoo was the religion, and voodoo was more like dolls etc. Anyways, I'm probably gonna put up a few shields tonight, and have a couple of spells I also want to do. This is the first time I've read something "bad" and had thoughts like that o;. I've read tons about empathy/telep, but never actually done it. I'll probly program my shields a little extra for that as well. It's been a while since I made shields anyways.
Blessed Be,
Kody
You might be over-stressed. If reiki helped then it might have helped by helping you to relax. I would suggest playing some soft music, natural sounds, or even Beethoven, but avoid anything heavy or hard like Metallica, 3DG, A7X, etc. Meditate for awhile and focus on sending reiki energy through your body for about 15min+ and see how you feel after that.
The reason I think it could be stress is because I sometimes feel more violent when I get to stressed out. Usually it takes a few months or so without relief before I start feeling that way, but it does happen.
