I am at the end of all i live for, I need to go back to last week to save the one i have lost and my life, I have no knowledge of macig or how to use it.... but I beg of you with all my heart, someone please help me. this has to happen, it has to work. i need this more than i need air.
I need only one chance to change one event that took place last week. ive had a week to calm down and think, and ive tried everything else i can think of. if rewinding my life by one week is impossible, i still need to change that event and get my darling back into my arms. it seems silly i know, but there is so much surrounding this that it is earth shatteringly huge. and will affect so many people in so many ways. i have to try.
last week on sunday i said and did a few things that hurt her, more than i thought possible, i thought she was happy. i did everything to ensure she was. but what i said and how i acted must have crushed her heart. i came home on monday to find shed left with my child. and was never to return. she wont answer txts or calls. and made it clear i will not see them again. im practically and physicaly giving up living as a result. docs dont know how to help. i need to change what i did and said, to save myself, my love and my child. as well as those who will hurt when i go.
i cannot eat, i uncontrollably throw it up, even with medication, i do not sleep. even after sedation. the only things my body accepts are alcohol and cigarretes, which is making it worse.
You can't change the past. Magick or not, it's simply not possible to turn back time and take back your screw up. And that's obvious that you did indeed screw up.
Welcome to life. We make mistakes and pay the consequences for them.
What you can do is look at your options.
Leave her alone for a while because harassing her is only going to tick her off more. Telling her that you are going to die without her is a guilt trip and a form of manipulation that most women will not stand for.
As far as your child, start looking into custody laws in your country because if she doesn't allow you to see your child, you need to know what you legally can and cannot do.
We all screw up and wish we could take things back from time to time. Magick, isn't a solution to every problem, and what you want to happen, can't be done with magick at all.
ive made many mistakes in my life. this one has to change. i dont tell her ill die without her... that i keep deep inside. and im ncertainly not harrassing her. as for custody battles. ive been through that with my first child, it screwed her up. i learned from that. time wont change this womans mind, that i know for certain.
