Name: Ayase
Birthday: Apr 29 1999
Gender: Female
Last Seen: Wed, 12 Dec 2018
Membership: Member
Personal Bio
Hi my name is...
many years ago, i have forsaken my wanting to learn magic, due to my parents religious beliefs. I have now regretted my decision. I feel more lost than ever since i have stopped practicing. I want to regain what i have lost which is so little but I feel as if i am making the right choice which is also very confusing. I don't know if it is fate but it is what i desire. If anyone can help me, I would be really happy. Blessed Be.
A little about me: I love music, writing, poetry, art, horror. I have a passion for cosmology, astrology, astronomy, anthropology, botany. I no longer have any writings or a book of shadows, but i want to try building it again. I have a vision of how i want to be and where i want to be. I feel as if i belong out on a field of grass, with a small house, lots of cats, wide gardens, somewhere isolated but free with the wind and the brightness of the stars.
I believe in the supernatural, nature spirits, fairies, demons, angels, gods, ghosts, etc.
I studied black magic, it was very little but i was going through a tough time, I don't recommend it, but curiosity killed the cat right. I suffered from hallucinations and sleep paralysis all the time. If anyone knows the reason for that occurring, please message me, I was probably doing something wrong since i was so young. Now I want to focus on meditation and more of light magic, self discovery. I also studied light magic but that was also very little.
I feel as if i am more affiliated with nature like the earth, flowers, water, dirt, grass, trees, etc. its hard for me to live in the desert since i always end up hurting myself with the hard rocks, glass, poisonous creatures and pointy cactus, and its always hot. Its nice to visit the mountains at least, well one of them.
