Name: bladefang
Birthday: May 23 2000
Location: in the shadows with tears of blood
Gender: Male
Last Seen: Fri, 19 Feb 2016
Membership: Member
Personal Bio
Status: offline mostly because extremely sleepy but still get online
Warning this my containing a lot of incorrect word that's because of auto correct lol
Hi my name is Alex. Neko is my nickname because I have charecteristics of a cat and I was wondering if anyone can help me step by step on magic or castings spells and yes I believe in magic since I was little.I just don't know where to start so please help and I will try helping you back in any way on becoming a neko.
Also Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You?ve had yet another horrible day. You?re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you? ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don?t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you?re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She?s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that ?Mommy is crying and sissy won?t wake up.? Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what?s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there?s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they?ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can?t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can?t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They?re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She?s in shock. She can?t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad? Bad enough for you to end it. She can?t cry, she can?t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It?s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone?s crying, your little brother still doesn?t know you killed yourself, he?s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn?t stop for days. It?s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn?t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go intodepression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn?t succeed like you did, but she tried?your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don?t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don?t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can?t get better if you give up. I?m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are.
This almost happen to me but thanks to this website I'm still hear in this beautiful world well kinda
The boy you punched in the hall today? Committed suicide a few minutes ago. That girl you called a slut in class today? She's a virgin. The boy you called lame? He has to work every night to support his family. That girl you pushed down the other day? She's already being abused at home. That girl you called fat? She's starving herself. The old man you made fun of cause of the ugly scars? He fought for our country. The boy you made fun of for crying? His mother is dying. You think you know them? Guess what, You don't! Re-post if you are against bullying. I bet 99% of you won't, but repost this if you're that 1% that has a heart.
Presently bio
I'm 14
I'm a boy
Nothing much goes on any more
History
I have been though a lot of things that if I wold try to explain my story to some one they will ether stare at me like if I needed mental help or they will think I'm a bad liar pretty much I'm on my own.because none of my Family is religious but me I act different eat different see different and even sleeping differently that's because I'm half cat (act not look like)
Also I can hear voices in my head when I'm home only at home no I don't live by myself I'm only 14
there more but it will take a lot of time and message me if you want or have any questions
If anyone can answer this what dose it mean when you see blood an yust want more blood no not a vampire only half cat no I don't look like a cat I act like one anyways pleas answer the question
any questions about me I wold be happy to answer and remember I know near nothing on casting spells
More bio
I like to tab eat and kill people
Just kidding
I like to clime trees
Draw
Meditat(helps remember past)
also very kind and knowing for most problems so if you want to talk I will always be happy to help
I some times cry a lot almost every day wanting to scream help help HELP but nobody can save you all you can do is cry and hate everything in life you want to kill yourself but you can't leave your friend and family so I go to the shadows wher the voice speaks to me and tell me secrets that humans may not know or even believe and your past life my parents dies brother died all friends and family die by humans and all I did is wach them die I have a lot of hatred t wards people exept one her name was rose and she treated me like I was her child after my parents die rose cane and found me in the streets cold and hungry and she took me. That's why I am this way not completely hate humans because some day I will find a persons that I can truly call my parents and I will make sure nothing goes through the same pain I did
I always remember the day I met rose an my parents die and when I was being a coward when my friends died I just wach them get line up and then heard ready aim fire
Their deaths will always be with me memory too but it scars my soul for as longest I live up to this day I can still hear my friends and family screaming in pain and sadness like I said I cry so much you can see the tear stains on my eyes of all the the things that make me want to die all of this can be said in the sentence
Save him
Save them
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You can't
If you actually spend time reading you're in that 10% of people or whatever you might be that cares because the 90% of people is all the people in my life that surrounds me in school at home and in the streets but you guys are at that 10% that cares so thank you for your time.
know talk about my dark self
Likes killing,stabing,eating flesh and blood
dislike anything nice
Takes controlled when mad,sad and,when I have no energy
Chances to come out very low
That's why I barley have friends. T-T
I always go in the shadows to get answers from the voice the voice is only friend will bring internal happens so I wold not have to suffer no longer because no one in my life ether treats me like garage or they have no feline for me plus if I die it doesn't matter
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I have 8 more lives before ending up in hell
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Rest in pasta 9th life
1 hug=1 Dorito chip :p
I want to kill my self but that won't be a awesome death I actually want to do for a reason so I'm not going to kill myself
Also if you want to know more about me
Favorite songs usually songs that makes me cry
Songs that describes me:always running it's a COD zombies song
I'm not dating everything and everyone thinks I'm insane so no point
any questions about me please feel free to message me
Also the worst thing you can do to me is care about me because I'm just going to be getting hurt and kinda... abused
I cry blood T-T
I don't want others to cry for me
I came from the shadows with not a single light of home only pain and sadness around blinded by the fear of people have brought me pain and to suffer
-"The boy you punched in the hall today? Committed suicide a few minutes ago. That girl you called a slut in class today? She's a virgin. The boy you called lame? He has to work every night to support his family. That girl you pushed down the other day? She's already being abused at home. That girl you called fat? She's starving herself. The old man you made fun of cause of the ugly scars? He fought for our country. The boy you made fun of for crying? His mother is dying. You think you know them? Guess what, You don't! Re-post if you are against bullying. I bet 99% of you won't, but repost this if you're that 1% that has a heart."
