Hi everyone! This is my first post but I've used the recourses on this site for a while and love it! So I've been spellcasting for about three years now and will only tell you now that I can cast a spell; I've had a spiritual awakening that brought me through a lot of studying and learning and practicing. Before, I didn't really consider myself anything more than a student, though I would cast spells and had about a 95% success rate. I could sit down to do a spell and move my energy where I wanted it and it would manifest; no surprises here, but when I started meditating this year (I know) I found just how much more I could tap into and how powerful I can make it and how much further I can send it! I love meditating (but struggle with concentration in all areas) and I use it but the truth is I don't need it to get that energy flowing. I know I need to be in the right clear open head space, and I cannot change to and from that level on my own, but I would love to learn how. I can feel my energy when it's just me alone in a room or in nature, I can feel it exponentially when I have a candle to take it from, but here lately I've felt that I will have all I can hold in my hands (that's where I feel it radiate) but when I try to keep focusing on it and let it get stronger or work with my manifestion, before I can even cast it out it's just gone or it dies down. I don't even feel like I have an absurd amount, just a normal amount for spellcasting. Maybe my expectations around it are too high, but I do feel like I have a problem holding onto it. Any tips for holding onto all that energy?? Where does it go? Like if I have a lot and get distracted in meditating, like my mind slightly wanders, does all that energy pour into those dumb thoughts. Any insights on anything with harnessing and using energy would be greatly appreciated or energy excercises! Thanks!